i hate it when people complained about how bad their life is. i know that human have the tendency to never feel satisfied. when they achieve something they want more. thats good, i called it DETERMINATION. but people who complained and say stuffs like "why my dad isnt a millionaire?" or "im not rich okay?" or "oh i hate that i have to go to uni today, i wish i have a car"
honestly, my dad is not that rich either. but he is a very determined guy and a very positive man. he taught me how to save money and how to get what i wanted with my own hard work, and how to start a day with a positive mind. why do u complain when ur house is so damn big and ur dad is doing international business?
if u measure everything with money, trust me, u'll never get what u expect. money is not priority, happiness in life is. its about how u live it the way u are capable of. its about being positive. trust me.. when u think negatively about something, u'll become paranoid and its gonna happen the way u expected it to happen.
here is something that inspired me:
when i was in melbourne, i used to take train from melbourne central (city) to berwick (my campus).. it took the train about 55 mins to reach my campus.. in winter, its really hard for me to wake up and get ready to go to uni. i felt cold, lazy and always thought negatively like "ow crap, im gonna miss the train anyway" but i forced myself to go anyway. so i walked from my apartment to melbourne central, it takes about 7 mins to walk there. when i reached melbourne central, i always saw this homeless guy.. selling out magazines to the people.. he always smiled. he is about.. 50-60 years old or something. it was so freakin cold, probably 7-11 degree celcius. he greeted everyone and wished a great day to everyone that passed by the street while promoting the magazines. "hey buddy how r u doing today?" "hello ladies, have a great day" "hi sir, how are ya?" "hello mate, gday!"
i couldnt resist but buying the magazine. it cost me 5 dollars (i think, i kinda forgot) but i felt like i started a day with a good deeds. and i asked him "sorry mate, but.. why r u so happy? is something good happened to u?"
he answered me "i am always happy, there's nothing good happened but thats not a reason to become unhappy knowing that with this kind of feeling, something ggod will happen. u know kiddo (hell yea he called me kiddo), some people are just ungrateful for what they have. i just need a cup of coffee per day to be happy"
i was shell shocked, ashamed of myself of complaining about what i have when some that unlucky, can be that happy. i saw him almost everyday and i always say hi and he always smiled back at me.. EVERYDAY! that homeless guy made my day, and im trying to stay positive everyday.
so folks, drink coffee, think positively ;)
did u know: Coffee actually contains important anti-oxidants, which is the way most Americans get there daily fix. Coffee can be beneficial at about 1-2 cups per day.
i think i'm in love with u
me in emo mode? no way bay.. i know i have been missing someone right now and i sent her this song by mocca, an indonesian band who is known more as a cafe band: i think i'm in love with u..
enjoy ;)
it's a quite nice song.. easy listening kinda song.. well here is a fact that made me shocked.. one of my korean friends said that mocca is quite famous in korea and their songs are being played a lot in korean cafes.. wow im proud of them now..
i think i'm in love with u
by mocca
if you got an eerie feeling after hanging up the phone
sort of happy feeling but you're not sure what it's called
if you're haunted by his face whenever you're asleep at night
and think you hear his silly voice just calling out your name
oh, no! I think i'm in love with you..
on, no! i'm hoping you'll want me too
so, please..don;t let me down!
http://www.free-lyrics.org
just can't help but talk about him in every conversation
till your friends are sick and tired of that same old crap
if you start wearing make up even when you go to bed
and crying like a baby when you hear a mellow song
people come n go
well im not used to it.. definitely i experienced farewel before.. my friends, my family or my loved ones.. it's not pretty but i know i will meet them again one day which makes me ok.. but its not the case with the one i m feeling now.. i might not see her anymore.. should i just let go? i dont know.. one ever told me that people come n go, u just have to get used to it.. thats true.. u feel painful deep down in your heart but u just have to accept that its only your ego wanting them to stay for u.. people have their own life...which is why im trying to let go.. but i never realized that letting go knowing that u'll never meet again is the most painful thing u will ever experienced in social life.
whatever, i will survive
the hangover
my blog was quite dead.. i went back to indonesia and the internet wasnt that good.. when i got back to melbourne, i went for a road trip and finally, i moved to gold coast. just some story that i sum up short.
anyway, i am in gold coast now, doing my masters of business specialising in event management and tourism and hospitality management. long enough ey?
and last week was my easter break (happy easter!!) and we, me n my housemate, held quite a party in my apartment. ow btw, this is how my new room look like:
the closet
front door
my bathroom, shower n spa in it!!
here's the spa
living room
the kitchen
my closet
my closet
pretty good huh? i know!! the best things here are the private spa and the closet. but u know what? it happens to be no door in the bath room.. so... u know, it's kinda weird but whatevss..
so last easter break, we invited 20 of my friends to have bbq by the poolside, and have some drinks. ow, n they threw me to the pool btw.. showing some of their love? maybe.
we had lots of sausages, burgers, kebabs, skewers and all that for food. for beverages, and here's the biggie, 100 bottles of beer, cans of cokes, 4L of wine, and some bottles of spirit (vodka, tequila, rum)
drinking games.. n ice cream!!
some folks at the party
chef of the day
joker of the day
that's the beer!
so we had drinking games until like...2.30 am? and i was still awake till then. but this german guy, kiki said to me "yo dude, they re all wasted and this party is almost over, lets play 1 on 1 black jack with me" anddddd.. as a friendly host (and a dumbass loser), i accepted the challenge, everytime someone loses, they hv to drink 1 shot. that's right! that little shooter glass laughed at me and said "looser!"
i lost many times in a row, untill we finished all the spirits, i only had some baileys, galliano, kahlua, and grand marnier.. so we used those liqueurs for drinking games and we finished it!! great? no way. the next thing i know, i woke up in my room... NAKED.. thats right, naked!!
i woke up, my head felt so dizzy, and i saw a lot of stains from vomit in my room. my room was stink like shit. literally!
my friend called me and i asked "hey man, did u vomit in my room?" as i dressed myself up with a towel. he replied with laugh "it was u who vomit.. and btw, that was quite a show last night"
i was like "WHAT?? WHAT SHOW??" i went out of my room, checked all of the cameras to see what happened last night before i passed out. they said "nahh.. there's nothing in there.. u called a girl and said some shit in indonesian" "WHAT??"
so i checked my phone, and yeahh i called a korean girl and apparently i talked to her in indonesian. i didnt know what i said but.. let's just leave it there.. anyway here's what it looked like the morning after:
here are all the drinks we finished
what the hell happened to my kitchen?
it's all messy
that's the mess
guess where did i vomit?
from that time, they called me "angel" because i fell from the sky, with only towel around my waist.
cool huh? that was like.. the first and should be the worst hangover in my life..
believe me kids, don't drink and...
just don't drink too much, it's not gonna be good for your health
or your house the next morning
new year resolution
happy new year!!
lame... i know, it's too late yea?
but i have been busy recently with some parties arrangement, moving out stuffs, graduation, and many more. so a quick update will be.. the new year resolution!! some review about last year: i graduated from monash, i got my bartending certificate, i got better shape now thanks to "summer body project", and.. i still have no girlfriend. wow.. i havent been dating for a year.. thats kinda good....
well anyway.... how about this year?
let's see.. i am trying to get scholarship for my master, i am going to work and have my own money, and i am trying hard to be independent. thanks to a girl that i met recently, a true inspiration.
so what about u?
whats ur new year resolution?
yay me!
you know, it is very intimidating when u re waiting for your results through sms results. yes! monash has this services called sms result where u can get the result by your phone. a week before my result been released, i found it really difficult to sleep. probably becoz i ve told everyone that im going to graduate this december and i dont wanna lose face. or probably becoz i hate to repeat another unit in monash anymore. anyhow, that week was really miserable for me. i slept and had a dream about getting my results almost every night, and woke up in the middle of my dream just when i was about to open check my mobile.
it got worse the day it will be released, i slept and i had a dream that i passed all my exam, but i woke up feeling annoyed just to realize that it was a dream. and that happened every 2 hours. how stressful i was? THIS stressful.
right before it was released, i went for dinner to a japanese restaurant, and u see.. i have 2 mobiles, and i thought that my samsung is the mobile that i registered to monash for sms result, and i was playing with my iphone until i received a message:
my.monash portal sms results: mgw2200 D 70, mkw2460 D 70, mkw2600 C 61, mkw3444 D 70.
i didnt expect any sms, so when it came out to the screen, i scream loudly : "yay!!! im graduating yeahhh yeah yeah!!!" and punch the air
and everyone stared at me. i was like "ah sorry, sorry"..................... but then "i dont care yeah!!!!!" then my friend congratulated me, and we went to a bar and i opened a bottle of champagne, real good, real expensive, but its kinda nice to have people that u can celebrate with. wish u guys in malaysia is here. but yay me! im going to graduate this december!
;)
casual or strings attached? (reply to tomz blog)
so here's a topic set by my very best friend tommy in his blog. and he said:
In terms of relationship, and by this i mean a guy being close to a girl or vice versa, in more than friendly manner.
When your relationship comes to a certain point which i think you know where, do you prefer to have it casual? To consider it as something fun to experience, somehow gray, and unlabeled so to say.
OR do you prefer to have it named? (boyfriend, girlfriend, soulmate, love, you name it).
in that case i have to say that this is a case that always happened to me almost all the time. when I am close to someone with or without intention to be with someone, i always want to define the relationship for future's sake. i will say it again. I WILL ALWAYS WANT TO DEFINE MY RELATIONSHIP. i dont want it to be casual. maybe i would, but there's a point in a relationship where u cant be a casual. u gotta do it anyway so why dont u do it from the start?
and here's my reason:
when i went out with one of my exes (is that the plural form?), and there's a time when u want to know what kind of relationship that we were having, i asked "what are we now?" and she said "i just want it to be natural, casual, is status really matters to u?" well at that point u say "it's not that.. it's just.. bla bla bla" and u gave her some reasons, but in my head i was thinking.."hell yea it matters!! where's my limit if i dont know my status?" i mean.. if you are casual, can u hold her hand? can u give her a hug? can u kiss her? it's not that it matters to kiss you or sleep with you, what matters is that we know our limit when we want to express our feeling. is a kiss alrite? is a hug too much? and thats one.
number two is that it gives u an idea on how to react at some events. here's what happened to me before. so we were kinda casual, and she decided to go out with some other guy, a friend that she hasn't met for a long time. how would you react? is that ok if u feel jealous? well she's not yours for u to be jealous. but u feel jealous? what do u do? nothing u can do. u dont have the right to be jealous, but u are just a human being that can feel jealousy. its like a mental torture when this happens, believe me, u wont like it. now when the same thing happens to u, when a girl asked u on a date, what do u do? will u ask for permission? but she's not ur girlfriend why should u be worried? but u feel guilty and uncomfortable going out with someone else. so u decided to tell her and she said u cant go out with her? how would u react? but i guess it depends on how would u want to react at the first place. if u like it this way, then u re a lucky bastard. but if either side feel this way, then this is for u.
and here's the final reason. u want to define ur relationship because u want to be sure on where is this relationship going to. well.. there's this relationship that i had before, and when i asked her what we were, she said this "we will see.. if we are destined together, then no one will be able to break it". what did i say? "ok" and that was the worst answer i had ever given to anyone. i mean helloooooo?? are u dumb or just plain stupid? sorry if im not a believer. sorry if im not a biggest fan of cinderella story. and sorry if im being realistic. but hell, i dont believe in destiny. i believe that we are what we decided yesterday. there's no such thing as destiny in love. i believe that 2 people falling in love and try to work out for their relationship. if u cant give me assurance of where this relationship is going to then u dont want what i want. and thats the end of the story for me. u can say "but i love her". well theres million of men and women out there looking for exactly u and u want to try to do and work it out even though u dont know where is it going to? its ur call buddy, as i said, u are what u decided yesterday. but does he or she really worth trying? if yes then u re a lucky person and u should go for it. but keep my advices in mind.
and that concludes it, what do u think?
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